My first true love

~My first true love~

Chapter 4

What did I really feel for Alexander? I mean, he left me without saying anything. Love is just complicated. Now that Jack is around, I feel that my life has turned upside down; I don't really know what my feelings are anymore. Did I really like Jack or I'm using him to full fill the whole in my heart?
Jack's lips felt soft against mines, the feeling that he give me was magical, I feel protected when I'm near him, sounds weird since I just met him, but it's like love at first sight, but in this case its not love what I feel, but I have no doubt in my mind that I'll fall for him on the long run.
He pulled away slightly, trying not to ruin the moment. "Jane" he whispered.
"Yes?"
To be honest, I didn't know what to say, should I or not be his girlfriend?
We stood there in completely silence, the only thing I could hear was our breathing and my heart pounding faster and faster by the minute.
"Jane...it's ok if you want to wait, I'll understand" he said holding my face gently. Would he really wait?
"No....I mean, yes I want to be your girlfriend" I said, not sure whether to take that back or not, but seeing Jack's face, made me change my decision, maybe I could give myself a second chance.
I giggled when he pulled away blushing. "What's so funny?" he asked looking away.
I laughed. "Nothing, you just look cute when you blush"
He turned around and I saw a smirk on his face. Great.
"Oh, really?" he said in a playful way, he got closer and started tickling me.
"Hey.....that.....tickles" I said not being able to stop laughing.
He stopped and we both stood there, just looking at eachother, I knew that once I saw his face, my heart was going to break since I had to tell him about Alexander.
But I didn't want to, at least not now anyway.
"Jack?"
"Yes?"
"I....I have to tell you something"
"What is it?" he asked, looking concerned.
"I....I've never had a boyfriend before, so I don't know how things work" I said blushing. I could feel my face starting to burn.
"Jane, its okay....we can go on more dates so we can get to know more about